After months of being overwhelmed with school and work and ballet rehearsals, I finally graduated. Which means maybe I'll get back into the blogging zone? Hopefully?
It's strange, this growing up business. This age of change. Watching everyone and everything around me change, and not understanding anything one bit at all.
One chapter closed off. Beyond reach. One chapter ... not yet opened. Beyond reach.
A floating existence. Restlessness.
Long walks - no destination. Just trying to figure out life. No words in my brain, yet thinking constantly. A feeling of prayers unsaid simmering inside while I power-walk my frustrations out until the blisters come,
and then further.
And it's like I'm processing a million things at once until I can't think anymore.
And that's just it. It's a process. I know it will come.
But, dang son, I'm driving myself bananas! (And my family - sorry, Mom. :)
I finally just needed a space where I could tune out all the bigness - all the life changes that are coming, have come. The things that overwhelm me and catch me off-guard until I can't breathe right. I needed something small that I could wrap my head around. I needed little bits of uncomplicated curiosity and ... ease. And a place to JUST STOP OVERTHINKING EVERYTHING ALREADY. Geez.
So I started a new series in my sketchbook.
Yes. All that just to say I drew some pictures. :)
Quick rough sketches of real-life things that caught my interest. Easy color. A few simple words. Poetic, funny, normal. Whatever.
I refuse to overthink them.
They just are.
|Words I texted to a friend.|
|Sitting in the backyard watching the birds.|
|From my senior ballet recital.|
|Picking dandelions with a friend.|
|Self explanatory. :)|
Life is beautiful.
And very very weird.